Monday, November 05, 2007

A question of identity

Life is insane. It rattles along at breakneck speeds, and is so unforgiving in a lot of ways. There's no way to go back, no pause button, no end to the messages it throws at us. There's no end to the messages I create about myself, either. Fact or fiction, I tell myself who I am every second of every day.

Accomplished a goal? I feel great. "I am successful."
I say something I regret? I am ashamed. "I am cruel."
Somebody thanks me for something I did? "I am making a difference."
I lay on the couch for 'just one more show' when I know I should get up and move my body? "I am undisciplined."
Do something I never thought I could? "I am strong."
See someone who's got it all together (or seems to!)? "I am never going to measure up."

And on and on it goes... "I am not good enough. I am good at what I do. I am better than her. I am lazy. I am trying my best."

And I am told who I am countless times in a day, too. Sometimes it builds me up, sometimes it tears me down. But the voices - from inside or out - are loud. Deafening, almost. And they drown out the one voice who tells me who I really am - God's.

I'm constantly looking for comfort, looking for identity, looking for validation in all kinds of places. It's a very human thing to do. But I've been neglecting to go back to the One who tells me who I was created to be - my creator Himself.

So I've decided to take this month (and a bit) to remember who God says I am. To hear His voice over all the others. I'll be doing some journaling on my own, but each day I'll post the statement and the scripture I'm looking at, and maybe a thought or two, a song, or anything else that might be relevant. (And yes, that's above the NaBloPoMo challenge! Gee, I sure know how to over commit myself, hey? :P )

Join me, won't you? Because after all, God created you to be all these things, too.


Melissa said...

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Katrina said...

What a great idea, Hillary. I'll be coming here for inspiration. :)

anne said...

Sounds like a cool idea...looking forward to learning with you! :)

karen said...

Great idea, Hillary -- I so totally hear you on that one. I've been feeling the same way, and am getting so tired of listening to all those voices (especially mine!).

Hillary said...

hahaha... just re-reading this - did I really talk about the voices in my head??? :P

"I am crazy."

heather said...

great post, hillary - well written and well stated. i need this same reminder, so i'm looking forward to treking this journey with you.

nachtwache said...

Good for you! We do need constant reminding of God's truths; there are so many distractions in life, we're forgetful and fickle. I do the same thing. I can't wait for heaven, with all this behind us.
It'll be good for all of us to read that every day.